《扶她 2》
注：本文原文以英文写作而成；中文部分是作者本人的中译。
Last night in dream I had a vision of the distant legendary earth mind, Orochi. I must confess to y’all, my dearest sisters, for that when I wrote this piece in my mind, I was masturbating, with my left hand fingering my wet vagina and right hand jerking off my rock hard penis.
昨夜梦中，我见到了遥远的地球意志——大蛇。亲爱的姊妹们，我必须向妳们坦白：我写这段的时候正左手扣着我湿润的阴道、右手撸动着我坚硬无比的阴茎。
It all started when our corporation dismissed all people of my department that I once was in for 2 years. I lied down on my bed doing nothing, but thinking of preparing surgical scalpel, which is called “mes” in Dutch and Japanese, to cut down from my glans directly down through my whole urethra, onto the opening where it should be, had I been born with female genitalia. And when the pain take over my mind in the vision, I made it to Orochi’s mind.
这都要从我们公司把我工作了两年的整个部门扬了说起。我躺在床上无所事事，只在想着搞一把手术刀——此物在荷兰语和日语中叫做「メス」——从我的龟头一直沿着尿道切下去，直到我的尿道开口到达她本该在的地方——若是我生来拥有的是女性生殖器的话尿道开口的地方。这疼痛占据了我的精神，我便被送到大蛇的意志之中。
Orochi, the one that ultimately represents the earth, told me about relationship between human and nature, as well as between human individuals. When human once were, in the first time, and they’re out of effective language that could express themselves precisely, they instead practice it with their fleshy body and tender skin. Their tongue touched each one’s bare feet that once touched this enlightenment from motherly earth, with this earthy taste in their mouth they kissed each other all over with ultimate passion in their mouths, vulvae and penes. This joy of everyone’s juice and cum flowed into the depth of the earth they’ve mostly loved, and in Orochi they’re one, the primitive one. In fact, body all covered in earth has the same value to Orochi comparing to another body covered in divine delight of cum or defecate, and to human, it’s the same ritual as to feet covered in earth or crushed trampled food. But me, the modern queeric queen, is not earthly at all to perform such orgy with sexy queerly people I met for the first time last night. We rocked and we drank and we smoked weed, but all of these are industrialized forms of energy that are far from earth beneath tons of floors under our ephemeral body in the containment of cement and steel. Only by a mixture of blood, the blatant bloom of promiscuous life energy, should we connect with each other again in their hearts and their souls, while writing down our very own story with each one’s personal grief and euphoria. Thus for the Orochi, THEY had no choice but to offer this chance to my sagacious decision as I previously received Christ‘s title of βασίλισσα τῶν Ἰουδαίων.
终极的地球意志——大蛇告诉了我人和自然的关系，以及人们个体之间的关系。当人初生，尚无语言能精确地表达她们的意思，她们转而使用柔嫩的肉体和温热的肌肤践行。她们的舌头触碰着彼此曾接受大地母亲启蒙的赤裸的双脚，满嘴泥土味的她们以终极的狂热亲吻着彼此的嘴、逼和鸡巴。各人喜悦的汁水和精液流入她们最爱的大地的深层，在大蛇中她们合为一体，原初的一体。实际上对大蛇来说，沾满泥土的身体的价值等同于另一位沾满神性愉悦的精液或排泄物的身体，而对人类来说，这样的仪式等同于沾满了泥土或是踩碎了的食物的脚。但我，我这现代的酷儿王，根本不够尘俗、不够与昨晚初见面的性感的变态人妖们践行如此的银啪。我们摇滚、醉酒、呼麻，但这工业化的能量形式与我们处在钢筋水泥收容单元中的腐朽的身躯下隔着一堆楼层的大地相去甚远。只有凭借鲜血的混合——这淫乱生命能量的大胆绽放，我们才能再次与彼此心心相印，用我们各人的悲恸和欢愉写下只属于我们自己的故事。所以大蛇祂别无选择，只好将这机会留给我贤明的决断，因我已接受了基督的名号：犹太人之圣【王
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When I wake up I saw golden morning sunshine scattering on the view outside my bedroom window and all along my nude body, featuring the silhouette of my breasts and penis. The sky above mountains in the far end of the view is a crayon-like mix of blue and white like in an impressionist painting, making me instinctively doubt if I’m really in Sichuan this moment. I took out a bottle of half ‘n half from my fridge, randomly poured it onto heap of ice in my glass, and crazily licked off the puddle that spilt onto the table, just like greedily cleaning up an imaginary hermaphrodite’s urine and cum all over my lewd and delicious futanari body with my tongue. I asked myself, am I really willing to be the perverted tranny slut now? Am I ready to exhibit my lunatic mind to all human individuals now? I imagined blood dripping down from my fishnet stockings into my steamy shoes, and this made me continue to masturbate in front of my window wall in the living room.
当我醒来，我看到金色阳光洒在窗外的景色和我赤裸的身体上，显出我乳房和阴茎的剪影。视野远方的山峦上空是蜡笔似的蓝白相间，像是印象派绘画，使我本能地怀疑我是否此刻真在四川。我从冰箱里拿出一盒维她柠檬茶，胡乱地倒在杯中一堆冰块上，疯狂地舔干净桌子上洒的一滩，正如贪婪地用舌头清理一位想象中的二椅子希腊神明射在我淫荡而可口的扶她身躯全身上的尿和精液。我问自己，我真的愿意成为唯一的变态跨子淫娃了吗？我真的想好向所有人类个体展现我月狂的心灵了吗？我想象着鲜血从我的渔网袜上滴落到我热气蒸腾的鞋子里，这使我站在客厅的落地窗前继续手淫。